Regarding her project I just wish certain people in charge would decide it’s now ok to spill the beans. In the end people will just go “Told you so!” or “We were the first to ‘know’!” even if their speculation was based on one random guess of a barely-active member (speak: lurker) of one particular forum. Based on what the post says it could just as well turn out to be all smoke & mirrors. Either way, I’m not amused. I fear I won’t be able to say “Told you so!” or something like it anywhere, so for the record here it goes: I was one of the first to know when her participation was still totally up in the air and I knew half an hour after she got confirmation of the job! Which was 9 weeks ago!

Listening to Amy Macdonald’s new CD is great, though. Again it’s a fabulous record. I’m loving each and every song on it!

My brother came back home after a 5 month absence. I’m quite enjoying his presence in our flat. Maybe it’ll help me pull my act together as well! In any case I got to see my family more over the weekend. Because of his return we did all kinds of things together On Friday we had dinner at my parents’ place, on Saturday we went to see the bears in their new park in the city (we actually even spotted the 2 new baby bears) and had dinner at my sister’s place and on Sunday we went swimming with my parents.

Site-wise I’m only sure about SophiaMyles.org and Marion-Cotillard.org - and of course Claire-Foy.org. I’ll definitely be keeping them and still love not only the actresses but also running the sites. What about Emily & Catalina? I still really like the actresses, though keeping the sites feels more like a chore than something I really want to.

If I’m going to keep Emily it’s mostly because I’ve already spent so much money on my extensive magazine collection about her and feel like I owe it to myself to at least put that to good use, meaning scanning & uploading them. Additionally, I also have a ton of HQ public appearance pictures and of course it took a long time to cap almost all of her movies. It’d be a shame to waste that and I still bought her recent DVDs which I wouldn’t have were it not for the site. Finally, there’s no other resource about her.

Catalina, I really like tremendously as an actress and person. She’s shamefully underrated and has been stellar in everything I’ve seen her in. As with Emily, there’s no other resource about her and I feel like I owe it to Catalina or at least Riikka who originally set the site up so nicely not to abandon it. And of course as with all of my websites I’ve invested a lot, money & time, for magazines and DVDs as well as capping etc.

In both cases the websites would need new layouts as I’m so sick of  the current ones. They’ve been up for so long and just seeing them takes my motivation away. In any case, running Marion and Sophia takes up a lot of time already and I do have a very busy life apart from internet so I’m not sure if it’s even wise to contemplate keeping additional sites.

As for Fragment of Light, well, as it’s not specific about one movie, or actor etc I would definitely like to keep it as a pleasant pastime. However, as long as I have pressure of the outdated Emily & Catalina sites I don’t think running it feels pleasant. Which is in fact, why I’ve neglected it all year long.

So, if anyone is interested in buying any of the following including content, please get in touch:

EmilyMortimer.org: Domain, incl. whole content. Untagged versions of Scans & Public Event Appearance pictures available. Screencaptures of projects are mostly available as untagged versions, a few though only with tags. Additionally, a TON of magazines and unsorted HQ Public Appearance pics. If you want you can even buy Transsiberian, Redbelt, Chaos Theory and a few older projects of hers on DVD at a good price.

Introducing-Catalina.com: Domain, incl. whole content (all the pictures in the gallery available without tags)

Stellar-Matthew.org: Domain, incl. whole content (no untagged pictures available)

Mariana created the lovely header and I adapted my recent Marion WP theme.

So far, I’ve never really been lucky when it came to being part of a team on a website. Well, AnnaPaquinFan was really good, but I really only came onboard late and only to help out Angie. And it seems it only lasted a second. But apart from that… First of all, I’ve always liked to work alone on my precious websites about Sophia and Marion (also Scarlett, back when I still had it). And then there were a few occasions when one or both of us lost interest etc, so things just went their natural course. Really, I’ve no hard feelings at all about those instances. It just wasn’t meant to happen & I myself am partly responsible. But then there were times when everything I heard about someone’s commitment to a project sounded so fabulous and honest and serious, I stopped whatever I was doing and made it all happen. After everything was set up (or a very short while later) there was complete silence on the other end. Matthew and Emily were the sites in question. Anyway, not sure why I’m talking about all that now, but I’m sure I’ll have a great time on Claire Foy Source with Anna!

Not sure if I’ll be keeping my Fragment of Light site, but I’d really love to use it for all those screencaps etc I intended it for when I opened it. If only I had some more time & motivation to updated it! Let’s hope that’ll soon come!

Other than that I’ve read the first Sookie Stackhouse novel and kind of liked it. I mean it’s nothing deep but it’s good fun. I don’t see however, how fans of the book would condemn True Blood for its kinky scenes. Sure, the book only has those that involve Sookie, but she’s intended to be the innocent character, at the beginning at least. So what exactly did you guys think was going on in other people’s lives??!! Nothing?! Some people never cease to amaze me. The scenes might not be to their liking but to say they have nothing to do with the book is such a self-deceiving lie. Whatever makes them happy I guess.

As for True Blood, I’ve only seen the first episode of the new season yet. I’m not as enthusiastic about it as others are, but then I’ve always kind of felt ambiguous about the show. Also, I would never have said I’m into vamire stories. Go figure why I enjoyed Moonlight and why I keep watching True Blood. Well, there’s something about it that intrigues me. Not least Anna’s involvement. Though I have to say she looks too thin this season, also something about the shade of her hair is slightly off. It all gives her a “hard” look, and she looks kind of old. Well, I seem to be picky, what do you want?! I’m still in love with Erik played by Alexander Skarsgard (don’t care about the spelling right now) and if nothing else he’ll keep me watching lol

About actresses being too thin… Scarlett Johansson has come under quite some scrutiny lately. My opinion on the matter. Had she not lost some weight for the role, she’d be equally critizised, at least when the film comes out. Besides, she’s never really been curvy. Well, she’s got cleavage yes, but that’s just genes. No one who just happens to have large breasts but is otherwise very slim deserves to be commended for being “healthy” and “non-Hollywood” when others are more flat-chested but really more naturally curvy. Scarlett’s always had great legs and slim arms, people just never noticed because she always wore those tight and revealing dresses. It seemed to me she couldn’t press her cleavage enough, couldn’t make people notice it enough. It always looked as if everything would pop out any second. Now, apart from the weight loss the more significant change is her style of dress. The outfits aren’t as lowcut, as tight, as revealing. On pictures, black fabric makes it very hard to figure out what someone looks like in reality. So when people show me a pic of her dressed in some white skin-hugging fabric and a low-cut bodice next to one of her dressed in some black almost old-fashioned dress to “prove” that she lost more than she said I can just shake my head. Get over it people, she’s always been slimmer than most people I know in real life!

Then “Confessions of a Shopaholic”. Isla Fisher is great and Hugh Dancy (with what little he got to do) too. The whole film is just overly pink though IMO. For a movie marketed at women rather than girls (at least I think so) a bit less would have been ok. Whenever Rebecca was overly fascinated with shops etc I kept thinking how I couldn’t relate to that at all. Only later I realized I am just about the same when it comes to rare pictures & magazines of my favourite actresses - or just pics I don’t have yet. I HAVE to have them lol For the time being I want to focus on adding all the exciting stuff I own on the sites before heading off gathering more and more - so much for my self-set goal at the moment.

Oh, and I did buy 4 DVDs (at reduced price though) over lunch - any relation to my annoyance with my current car troubles?!

Watched Cranford earlier this week. I really enjoyed it, just a shame Mr. Holbrook died as suddenly. Now, that was a storyline I would simply have loved to see more developed.

Also updated the Radio Blog in the sidebar. Don’t know why I added those Il Divo tracks in the first place… Deleted those and a few others but added 4 new songs

I have seen The Reader now and I honestly can’t decide which performance I prefer so tonight I only knew I wanted Kate to win, but it didn’t matter to me for which one.

Marion was there too, looking really fabulous and sexy. I was almost sure she wouldn’t show so I wasn’t ready to record her presenting Best Actor… Also so far not too many pictures of her

Keeping busy has always been of good help and indeed I have so much to do I hardly have time to brood. Last weekend my friend had her wedding party. I was a bit hesitant about going because she isn’t that good of a friend after all and weddings in general always leave me with mixed feelings. But the actual wedding had already taken place in the US last month so it really was just a party. And I had lots and lots of fun!! Danced like crazy, like never before actually, since I’m usually not the dancing kind of person. Just a shame I haven’t taken any pics and I think my close friends who were also there didn’t either. But it’s definitely been a night to remember lol.

All those years
Of selfrestraint are gone
All the salty tears
Prove it’s been undone

You cannot realize
You cannot know her
She lets you see but lies
It’s really all just a blur

She was immediately lost
Remembering chances are dim
It was anything but frost
When she first met him

Feeling his absence is pain
She used to mock melodrama
Not feeling worthy but plain
She can’t get ouf of her pyjama

Her only wish for tonight
Is to grab a special seat
Not to give away her plight
Her heart is full of deceit

Having had her way she is torn
Between satisfaction and remorse
Sitting that close she was forlorn
Human touch is a powerful force

Visit is the doctor’s order
She studies the route
crossing five borders
Is it really as acute

She googles his name
Finds him on facebook
But it is not just a game
She can’t forget that look

Somehow reality prevails
No email nor friend invite
It is time to set the sails
It seems not worth the fight

Wallowing in self-pity
Is all she wants to do
Why was she being witty
Instead of just being true

She conquered it before
Thinking positive and all
Three times if you keep score
This time too she’ll stand tall

Life is unfair and hard
Till the one day arrives
She’ll always be on guard
And do her best to survive

Her heart is safely locked
Her glance often lowered
So as to not get mocked
Pain is hard to swallow

And the translation (courtesy of Roby doesn’t make the song any happier. Quite sad how much I’m relating to it right now…

(you’re)wounded,You count (one by one)
The things that are not gone as you wanted
Constantly just afraid of appearing worse
than that you actually know to be
You count, you specify, in order to remember
How many glances you have avoided
And how many words you have not uttered
no to risk disappointing (anyone)
Home, the entire day
The journey that you’ve made
To feel more confident
Closer to yourself
But it’s not enough
It’s never enough

You slip again and again as
you were a morning to dress and cover up
In order not to embarrass yourself you slip again and again
as if
You were expecting to surprise the distracted faces
Too far away to catch your silences
There is a world of intents behind
The transparent eyes
That you close a little

You feel the corners again
Of that failed courage
that in an instant make
your glance lower
and your thoughts invisible
You count once more (or again)
the days that you know they can’t wait for you
You have shut too many doors and to be able to re-open them
you have to embrace what you no longer have
The house, the clothes, the party
and your held back smile has afterwards exploded
to want less pain
But it’s not enough
It’s never enough

And you do not want (to make) any mistakes
But you want to live because those who don’t live (he who doesn’t live)
Leave the sign of the biggest mistake