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Exhausted

Sunday, February 15th, 2009 | Film, Sites, Songs | No Comments

I’m definitely exhausted from upgrading 7 Coppermine Galleries with the latest script. 4 of them also needed the new Stramm Mod. Usually I try to do one each day or so, but lately I’ve been very good at procrastinating online stuff so I did it all in a row. Seems like a huge waste of time but ever since having had my whole hosting account infected due to one un-upgraded Coppermine installation I really try to take the upgrades seriously…

Watched Cranford earlier this week. I really enjoyed it, just a shame Mr. Holbrook died as suddenly. Now, that was a storyline I would simply have loved to see more developed.

Also updated the Radio Blog in the sidebar. Don’t know why I added those Il Divo tracks in the first place… Deleted those and a few others but added 4 new songs

Kate is unstoppable

Monday, February 9th, 2009 | Celebrity | No Comments

At least I think so. How can she not win an Oscar now? She did the almost impossible (though Scarlett did the same in 2004) and won against herself at tonight’s BAFTAs!!!!! I was so happy for her! And of course her parents are the best

I have seen The Reader now and I honestly can’t decide which performance I prefer so tonight I only knew I wanted Kate to win, but it didn’t matter to me for which one.

Marion was there too, looking really fabulous and sexy. I was almost sure she wouldn’t show so I wasn’t ready to record her presenting Best Actor… Also so far not too many pictures of her

Wedding party

Tuesday, February 3rd, 2009 | Friends, Personal | No Comments

I’ve not been my usual sunny self lately but I’m starting to see the sun again. Well, not that I’m of a very sunny nature usually but in general I really do feel content and happy and can deal with disappointments really well. One day, or maybe two days at the most, and I’m no longer behaving irrationally. Well, these past 2 weeks I’ve stared enough at certain pictures, written enough in my diary, which I only rarely take out, and on this blog so let’s move on.

Keeping busy has always been of good help and indeed I have so much to do I hardly have time to brood. Last weekend my friend had her wedding party. I was a bit hesitant about going because she isn’t that good of a friend after all and weddings in general always leave me with mixed feelings. But the actual wedding had already taken place in the US last month so it really was just a party. And I had lots and lots of fun!! Danced like crazy, like never before actually, since I’m usually not the dancing kind of person. Just a shame I haven’t taken any pics and I think my close friends who were also there didn’t either. But it’s definitely been a night to remember lol.

Pain is hard to swallow

Friday, January 30th, 2009 | Friends, Personal | No Comments

She’s a mess
Like never before
You couldn’t care less
She cries even more

All those years
Of selfrestraint are gone
All the salty tears
Prove it’s been undone

You cannot realize
You cannot know her
She lets you see but lies
It’s really all just a blur

She was immediately lost
Remembering chances are dim
It was anything but frost
When she first met him

Feeling his absence is pain
She used to mock melodrama
Not feeling worthy but plain
She can’t get ouf of her pyjama

Her only wish for tonight
Is to grab a special seat
Not to give away her plight
Her heart is full of deceit

Having had her way she is torn
Between satisfaction and remorse
Sitting that close she was forlorn
Human touch is a powerful force

Visit is the doctor’s order
She studies the route
crossing five borders
Is it really as acute

She googles his name
Finds him on facebook
But it is not just a game
She can’t forget that look

Somehow reality prevails
No email nor friend invite
It is time to set the sails
It seems not worth the fight

Wallowing in self-pity
Is all she wants to do
Why was she being witty
Instead of just being true

She conquered it before
Thinking positive and all
Three times if you keep score
This time too she’ll stand tall

Life is unfair and hard
Till the one day arrives
She’ll always be on guard
And do her best to survive

Her heart is safely locked
Her glance often lowered
So as to not get mocked
Pain is hard to swallow

Scivoli di nuovo

Monday, January 26th, 2009 | Songs | No Comments

I’m listening to this song over and over at the moment. Probably because I’m masochistic because it makes me cry, the sound and what little I understand of the lyrics.

And the translation (courtesy of Roby doesn’t make the song any happier. Quite sad how much I’m relating to it right now…

(you’re)wounded,You count (one by one)
The things that are not gone as you wanted
Constantly just afraid of appearing worse
than that you actually know to be
You count, you specify, in order to remember
How many glances you have avoided
And how many words you have not uttered
no to risk disappointing (anyone)
Home, the entire day
The journey that you’ve made
To feel more confident
Closer to yourself
But it’s not enough
It’s never enough

You slip again and again as
you were a morning to dress and cover up
In order not to embarrass yourself you slip again and again
as if
You were expecting to surprise the distracted faces
Too far away to catch your silences
There is a world of intents behind
The transparent eyes
That you close a little

You feel the corners again
Of that failed courage
that in an instant make
your glance lower
and your thoughts invisible
You count once more (or again)
the days that you know they can’t wait for you
You have shut too many doors and to be able to re-open them
you have to embrace what you no longer have
The house, the clothes, the party
and your held back smile has afterwards exploded
to want less pain
But it’s not enough
It’s never enough

And you do not want (to make) any mistakes
But you want to live because those who don’t live (he who doesn’t live)
Leave the sign of the biggest mistake